Change I believe in...

After 7 years of locks and 2 years of braids... I am debating cutting off my locks. I have been saying that I wanted to cut off my locks for a while now, but kept losing the nerve every time my deadline would approach. My locks have become such a major part of my identity that I was way too afraid to cut them.

When I mentioned to other folks that I was considering cutting them... they begged me not to cut them. They are so pretty... they are so neat... I love your locks... once you cut them, there is no going back. And it made me hesitate... I have a look that works. And if I cut my hair and it looks whack... I can't sew it back on... they are gone.

And the question was why do you want to cut them? And there were so many reasons... but the most important was that my hair was starting to thin in the front. Everyone thought it was 'baby hair'... but... I am a grown azz man, and ain't nothing 'baby' about my hair... lol It was because of my locks. But on the flip side, what if I cut my locks and my hair didn't thicken again, I would go from looking late 20's to early 40's... lol 

Then I thought, what if it gets worse? I DON'T want to be the guy with locks that start at the middle of my head, and walk around looking like a cling-on warrior like Sista Patterson... Thats not a cute look. 

So... it was the night of my birthday party, three days before the actual day (feb 10th), and the arbitrary deadline I set for my lock cutting. I was on the phone with one of my friends and was saying how I had once again changed my mind about cutting my hair. The person on the other line was one of my lock advocates. He loved the locks and normally said I shouldn't cut them when we had this conversation. But on this day... he said... just do it. If you are going to cut them, today will be the day. If not today, then just stop talking about it. He gave me the number to his barber. And we got off the phone. I don't know if he thought it was a good idea or if he was just tired of hearing me moan about it. But it resonated with me... 

So for the next hour or so... I went back and forth in my head... then called his barber and made an appointment. And figured I could just not go if I didn't want to go through with it...

Then I thought... fukk it. Its time for a change. I want to wash my hair without having to retwist for 2 or 3 hours. I want to sleep without my hair getting caught under my body and pulling it. I want to go swimming without hair drama. Its been 9 years since I had short hair, and it was time for a change. I was literally saying this shyt aloud to try to amp myself up to it.

So... I did it! I went to my friends barber, and sat in the chair... and did it. And to my surprise...

I LOVE IT!

I love the short hair. I missed it. I had short hair like this my entire life aside from a high top or a curly blow out fro here or there... And I feel more like myself than I have in a while.

The ironic thing is that people are telling me that I look much younger now... and here I was thinking I was going to turn 35 and start looking 42, and someone even said, not only do I look young, but  I looked like I was college age. And you KNOW that made my day.  So... it was a good change... I am glad I did it.

You all can see it when I change my blog profile pic... just kidding... LOL Here is a link to my new look. Take a Look at the NEW ME!

Comments

[killervirgo]

Upgrade!

[mz ann]

the after is great!- nice move

[leon]

Hey man,

You don't know me but I have followed you blog for three years. I love the new look man. Be good dude.

[Darius T. Williams]

STILL HOT! I love it Toyce...love it!

[Ooo La La]

REAL good look my brotha

[tc]

you look hot...i follow your blog.

[nahtans]

much better....you are more than your hair baby

[hey you]

Cute! but the earrings with the big hoops ...Shows your age..take em off

[Nikki]

Still sexy, even without the locs!

[Coy]

What I know: even if you had cut your hair and looked "42"...you still would've been a hot dude. No doubt. The haircut looks great.

[Psun]

Thanks yall... and ROTFL about the earrings! lol I realized that from the pictures too and have since replaced them with just a stud. The hoops were ok for the locks... but with the low ceaser... not so much... lol

[Denneille]

I am also thinking about cutting my locs. I am in need of a change, holistically and since I attach both spiritaul and personal meaning to my locs I think its fitting that I cut them as an emblem of this change but I am freaking out...wondering if I will look ugly without them, but like ur fren sed jus do it (nike, lol) U look really handsome by the way, both with and without the locs.

[Name is required]

Whacka-docious? Check out your chin and your fading hairline.

[KonciousKaos314]

Definite Upgrade, that's a nice azz haircut boi

[Norris]

I know i'm month's late, but I like the new look.

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